Nick Barlow rated Admissible Affair: 3 stars

Admissible Affair by Adrian J. Smith
One-night stands aren’t supposed to turn into forever.
Bellamy has worked with and loved her wife of ten years, but …
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One-night stands aren’t supposed to turn into forever.
Bellamy has worked with and loved her wife of ten years, but …
This is an interesting book but if anything it's too ambitious in what it's seeking to cover. There's a lot of history to cover in explaining the background to the Islamic Revolution, the Revolution itself and then the way Iran has progressed since then. Because there's so much going on, and Axworthy is determined to cover it all, it can feel breathless at times, jumping from event to event without much of a pause for breath or deeper analysis. It's very good as an overview of everything that's happened, but it'll likely leave you wanting more depth on the issues that most interest.
Not the first time I've read this, it's been a favourite of mine since I watched the TV adaptation (when I was probably far too young for it!)
This story is seventy years old now, and it does show its age. There's a casual sexism that lingers nastily throughout the book, and I'd never really noticed before just how many times Wyndham tells us that Bill pauses to smoke a cigarette. We're very used to stories of the apocalypse now, so the way the story is told feels quite strange, lots of it is just Bill thinking through his situation and musing on what will happen to him now. I'd also forgotten just how quickly everything happens in the opening -within a couple of days of the start, everyone's planning for their brave new world and triffids are removing all non-essential characters from the story.
But despite that datedness, I …
Not the first time I've read this, it's been a favourite of mine since I watched the TV adaptation (when I was probably far too young for it!)
This story is seventy years old now, and it does show its age. There's a casual sexism that lingers nastily throughout the book, and I'd never really noticed before just how many times Wyndham tells us that Bill pauses to smoke a cigarette. We're very used to stories of the apocalypse now, so the way the story is told feels quite strange, lots of it is just Bill thinking through his situation and musing on what will happen to him now. I'd also forgotten just how quickly everything happens in the opening -within a couple of days of the start, everyone's planning for their brave new world and triffids are removing all non-essential characters from the story.
But despite that datedness, I still find it fascinating as it's laying out the forms of a new genre in a similar way to its American contemporary, Earth Abides. It's setting out an apocalypse that appears to be entirely human-created, even if it is accidental, and wrestling with the consequences of that. In the wake of WW2, this was still something new and terrifying so Wyndham is working out the ways in which that might happen be it genetic engineering, greed or satellite weapons that bring us down. Do read this to get an indication of how people approached this sort of thing in the 50s (with all the good and bad that implies) but don't expect it to be a conventional post-apocalyptic tale.
I picked up this book after seeing her spoken-word show of the same name, which covers similar ground to this and I'd also strongly recommend. This is a short collection of poetry, but one that resonated really strongly with me in its themes of searching for a way to be honestly yourself even if you're not quite sure who you are. There's a lot of humour in these poems, but it's through jokes that she can slip in with ideas and thoughts that have you thinking twice and wondering about your own choices as she lays bare some of her own.
There's good bits in here, but for me they didn't really come together as a whole. I feel like I've read this story or variations on it several times, and there's not really anything that happens in here that you wouldn't expect once the premise has been established. It's well-written, but the messages within it are very simplistic and feel like something you'd find on an inspirational poster. It also had points where it seemed that the author had the alien "discovering" music or poetry or whatever, and his tastes just happened to coincide with the author's. Why not have an alien who finds the secrets of the universe buried in Napalm Death or Bob The Builder rather than Debussy and the Beach Boys?
A Christian Bible is a set of books divided into the Old and New Testament that a Christian denomination has, …
This is an interesting but very variable book. I'd previously read Agorafabulous! and a lot about her struggles in that resonated very strongly with me and my own experiences. I had the same reading this but only in shorter bursts as the format of it being 52 separate essays without any sort of consistent order or connection between them meant some parts felt very meaningful to me, but they could be right next to what felt like filler. For some chapters I've got lots of highlighted notes and things to think about, others were just there. Nothing poorly written in here, and I love her writing style, but this is better as a book to dip into and find those bits that speak to you. And like other reviewers have said, the title is just that of one essay, not an overarching theme.
I oscillated between giving this three or …
This is an interesting but very variable book. I'd previously read Agorafabulous! and a lot about her struggles in that resonated very strongly with me and my own experiences. I had the same reading this but only in shorter bursts as the format of it being 52 separate essays without any sort of consistent order or connection between them meant some parts felt very meaningful to me, but they could be right next to what felt like filler. For some chapters I've got lots of highlighted notes and things to think about, others were just there. Nothing poorly written in here, and I love her writing style, but this is better as a book to dip into and find those bits that speak to you. And like other reviewers have said, the title is just that of one essay, not an overarching theme.
I oscillated between giving this three or four stars, but ended up on four because I'm feeling positive. It would be wildly up and down if I was doing something for each chapter!
I have depression, and the way I often describe that is to explain that there are times when my brain doesn't like me. It's very hard to explain that feeling of part of you explaining to you all the ways you're worthless, but I recognised it in this account of mental illness and the effect it can have on your life. What this book captures is the way in which something that from the outside seems absurd can become entirely logical to you because something inside you is telling you that's how it should be. This book manages to combine oh-my-God terrifying and laugh-out-loud funny, often in the same paragraph about the same event.
Like The Psychology Of Time Travel, this too features a tight-knit organisation based around closely held knowledge. Here it's a sprawling family holding a magical secret and the story unfolds around that secret and the world that has grown around it. It's an engaging and fascinating story, though sometimes oddly paved especially in the conclusion and explanation.
Realised as I was reading this that I'd started reading this series (OK, the Merchant Princes forerunner to it) well over a decade ago. I can remember reading the author's introduction to it on his blog and thinking that sounded right up my street and mostly it has been. I'm a sucker for alternate histories and parallel worlds, especially when combined with an understanding of politics and the way governments actually work, as opposed to how a lot of fiction presents them.
And I enjoyed this as the capstone to that long and sprawling series, not least because it finally got a climax and satisfying ending despite all the hurdles that have got in its way. (Seriously, the afterword's litany of what Stross went through during the writing of this makes your average Thomas Hardy plot seem like a light romantic romp) It's bumpy and unevenly paced as all the …
Realised as I was reading this that I'd started reading this series (OK, the Merchant Princes forerunner to it) well over a decade ago. I can remember reading the author's introduction to it on his blog and thinking that sounded right up my street and mostly it has been. I'm a sucker for alternate histories and parallel worlds, especially when combined with an understanding of politics and the way governments actually work, as opposed to how a lot of fiction presents them.
And I enjoyed this as the capstone to that long and sprawling series, not least because it finally got a climax and satisfying ending despite all the hurdles that have got in its way. (Seriously, the afterword's litany of what Stross went through during the writing of this makes your average Thomas Hardy plot seem like a light romantic romp) It's bumpy and unevenly paced as all the pieces for the big finales are slotted into place or kept in a holding pattern until they're needed, and there's quite a bit of infodumping en route, but the conclusions of the differing plots are good when they come.
Now, where's a streaming service looking for the next series, because an adaptation of these would be great to watch...
This is a tour de force of language, a tale told in a realistic nineteenth-century voice full of slang and turns of phrase that make the milieu come alive. With a novel like this there's a tight line to walk between authenticity and understandability, but this manages it with each piece of new terminology understandable in its context neither bewildering the reader not requiring the narrator to break the tale to become a glossary for us. It makes for an entertaining picaresque as we transit through the underbelly of London in the company of a pair of 'resurrection men' and petty criminals, seeking their one big score to fund a better life elsewhere. An entertaining read, well worth your time.
This was interesting but a bit of a mess. The set-up and the ideas are fascinating, but there are too many times when the author's focus doesn't tell the story. A major development between two characters at the start gets glided over and we end up getting told a lot about the importance of their relationship, but it never feels like we've been shown it. Some parts when the narrative jumps around are part of a literary device and the stream-of-consciousness nature of the storytelling, but others feel like the author not checking on themselves. There are quite a few parts in this that feel like they really needed a good editing and proofreading before publication. The heart of the story and the key ideas are good, but the execution doesn't deliver on that promise.
A fascinating and powerful read, moving between wonderful moments of nature and deep dark times of grief-driven near-madness and obsession. For me it captured that sense of unmooring one feels after the death of a parent and how Macdonald tried to gather meaning back into her life by devoting itself into the training of a goshawk. Rich and lyrical prose captures the feeling of being out in the eastern countryside and the freedom that can be found there to leave an old self behind. A book that will speak to people in different ways, just as the story of TH White resonates with Macdonald through their shared belief in the power of a hawk to make them whole.